What is happening with this world?

Hey guys! 

Lately, on Facebook, I've been seeing a lot of girls that are just acting too serious for their age, not saying it's not good, but when you're 12 and taking selfies with duck faces and what not else. Hey I'm a teenager and I don't act like that because I know where is a line that I shouldn't pass. Loads of people are saying that this generation is the worst well I don't think it is, I don't think this is a "final transformation" of this generation. Just imagine when this generation will get kids, which is happening every day, every day in the world there is some 13 year old pregnant because they want kids or they think that it's "cool" when actually it's not cool at all, they got everything wrong. You are old enough to have sex is when you get married and when you're at least 19+. Don't count those kids who are pushed to get married as a kid, they're pushed and it's not their wish. When I see my peers making out, acting 20, taking slefies almost with no clothes on, makes me throw up because this is not how it should be.

"Blame the parents"
It's not always parents' fault. Someone can have quiet, nice kid with good marks and they can still turn into those kind of "cool" kids. It's other kids that have parents that allow them to do anything, that allow them to go to clubs and to do crazy stuff, it's their fault, they turn them into "cool" kid. Believe me, I know that, I've seen that. Girl was nice, quiet and was one of the best students, but when she started hanging out with the "cool" kids, everything changed, she changed, she's not the same girl that she was before. I tried to tell her, but she didn't listen because she's "too cool" for that and she likes it this way.

Another example. There is a group for teenagers that are next year going to high school (different school system here) and you can find normal statuses like "In which school are you going?" and stuff like that, but you can also find statuses like "Inbox me for date" or "Girls inbox for something". 14 year olds wrote those statues, that group is full of 13/14/15 year olds. You can even find "GUYS FOR THERE IS A PARTY FOR END OF THE SCHOOL, CALL ME FOR MORE INFORMATION, DRINKS, FOOD, LOUD MUSIC, PRETTY GIRLS" <-- that kid is still going to secondary school/elementary school which means he is 14/15.

What is happening with this world?

Princess of Lonely Island

Hey guys! Since I love drawing and writing stories why not and share it with you!

Once upon a time there was a princess living on an island, the happy island with loads of people and of course her dad the king, Greg was his name and her mom the queen Nicole. When princess turned 18 she wished for a boy, but not for an average boy, boy of her dreams, her prince. In that time, far, far away lived a boy, prince James, son of the queen Maria. The queen was lonely, father of her son died, she killed him, why? Well 18 years ago she fell in love with young prince named Greg, she loved him like nobody else, but one day the princess came, the other one, princess Nicole and she took him. She took her love, since then everything went down. Her parents gave her to some king, her dad's best friend, he was too old for her, but her parents didn't care. She went crazy because of jealousy and killed him, she couldn't take it. Few months later, her first born son was came, prince James. Now let's get back to the story. It was princess' 18th birthday and she wished for a prince. Since fairies came to her birthday, they heard her wish and made it come true. The fairies flew all the way to other island where prince James lived and told him that far, far away from here there is a princess and as the prince James wanted to get married as soon as possible, he followed the fairies. When prince finally arrived, he introduced himself to the king and the queen and finally to the lovely princess. When she saw him, she fell in love with him, it was love at the first sight. They were talking and talking and finally kissed. As queen Maria was his mother, she knew everything about her son, what is happening with him or where he is. When she heard that he went away without goodbye, she decided to search for him. Her mother senses brought her to some castle. That castle was familiar to her so she entered. When she saw love of her life she got mad, nobody could stop her. She finally found a room where her son is, when she saw her son kissing princess, she got mad again and placed a curse on everybody expect the princess.

"From this day, no human shall enter this island. As I leave everybody leaves expect the princess.Let the loneliness enter this island"

From that day, nobody came on this island. The princess was alone, alone with her castle. Again, as she walks trough the island she wishes for her prince, but this time nobody is here to hear her.

Hope you liked this story I wrote and the drawing too. SMILE

My first time

Hey guys! Loads of youtbers did this so why not and try haha :)

FIRST CRUSH
Well I don't remember who was my first love, but I'm sure that it was a boy
FIRST KISS
Nope, didn't happen and I'm happy it didn't because it's better to wait for the right one (if he will come) than to waist your life with the wrong one
FIRST PET
I know we had a cat before, but I'm not sure if I was born while it was still alive so I'm gonna say a dog, her name was Nera and well she died, R.I.P
FIRST MUSIC TO BUY
I have no idea
FIRST CONCERT
Well wouldn't call that a concert, but it was in my town and it was from one of my favorite singers in that time and well it was awesome
FIRST THING TO DO THIS MORNING
I woke up of course and if we don't count waking up then it will be grabbing donuts


So this is it for now! Hope you liked it. SMILE

Am I doing it right?

Hey guys! Stuff lately aren't going so well to be honest, for me at least.

In few months my whole world will start to sink if I don't pick the school. Here in Croatia after secondary or elementary school, I have to pick specific school that is educating for specific job and I don't know which one. My mind is full of thoughts about my future and school while other girls only think about money, parties and God knows what else not. I'm worried because while they're having fun I'm here sitting at home and searching for some school that might interest me. Am I doing it right? All of them picked some fine school with big dreams in their heads because they are "smart" not saying that they aren't, there are few of smart girls. I asked everybody to help me, mom, dad, I don't even want to ask grandma because she will start talking how it's not time for that now and how it's too late. I was going literally trough every school I found on internet and when I finally find one, somehow in my mind there is a picture how that might be hard or something.

For example I wanted to go for a cook and everything was fine until this happened in my mind:
Oh God you're going for a cook. Did you see Hell's Kitchen? Did you see how they work hard and how it's difficult? There is no way you will make it, you're loser, you'll fail, you'll get fired at the first day.

Okay thank you wonderful voice inside of my head telling me that I will fail. It's not like I'm planning to do it forever because my dream is to become a youtuber, but of course if I plan to move out from here, to start in other country, I will have to work as a cook somewhere so I can earn enough amount of money to pay for some flat there and bills too, until of course, I get chance to get paid or get that contract. Now I'm not being some spoiled little girl that is only thinking of money, but you do get paid and it is very important.

Am I doing it right? 

Things to do when you're...

Hey guys! So I've seen a lot of "Things to do when you're..." so why not and do one by myself.

THINGS TO DO WHEN YOU'RE BORED

• SLEEP- I know this might sound crazy, but when I'm bored I go to sleep 
• EAT- yeah you might get fat or something, but usually you're bored because you don't have enough energy so that might turn you on (not on that way)
• CLEAN SOMETHING- at first it might be boring to you to clean, but when you turn the right music on it all gets funny
• SOCIAL MEDIA- for example go on facebook on twitter and scroll a little bit to see what people are talking about and you might join
• GO IN LAND OF IMAGINATION- if you pick the right music and if you relax (usually I play subway surfers with music) you can enter in land of imagination and do whatever you want

THINGS TO DO WHEN YOU'RE SAD

• SLEEP- sleeping always helps you in no matter what situation you are
• FUNNY PICS- google "funny pics" or you can go on facebook and scroll to some pics, helps me
• WATCH VIDEOS- funny videos always help, try vine or google "100 best vines"
• CHAT WITH SOMEONE- when you find right person to chat with, every sad thought goes away

I hope I helped you :) SMILE.

I have to let him go

Hey guys! Haven't wrote any poem/song call it whatever you want, for a long time, so here it is.

I have to let him go
I have to let him flow, away

It will happen, I know
I will have to let him go
Oh God please no

If only God could hear me
It is starting to tear me, apart

He will have a wife
and live his perfect life
without me

I don't wanna go to the dentist

Hey guys! How's everybody? 

When it comes to brushing teeth, I'm not that person that will brush them all day and all night. It came to the stage where I forget to brush them. I have all my teeth, thank God, but the problem is that the front one, those two main, always get "sick", not the back ones, not the ones by the side, nope, just those two main that are at the front. I think it was last year, I was going to the dentist' and she was fixing one of those two at the front and she fixed them, even tho I didn't see the problem, but she's the dentist so whatever. Few days ago one of them, not fully, broke, like little, tiny part of it fell and it's on same side where she was fixing it so my mom said she's calling the dentist. Oh I can't wait till I get there and then listen to her talking about her family and stuff while fixing my tooth, oh how fun it will be. That's the only fun part there actually plus she's really good and patient. Hey, if she wasn't good and she didn't talk about her family and life, I wouldn't even go there because it will be hell.

To be honest, it's worrying me her reaction and what is she gonna do to me. When I'm on that big blue chair, she usually put some needle inside my tooth and then burns them, eew or give me injection with some water or whatever it is, scary. After that, I'm brushing my teeth for few days and then I totally forget and continue living my lazy, hungry life.

This is it for now guys! Hope you have a nice day and please wish me luck because I don't wanna come out crying for the first time going from the dentist. SMILE.

Weird dreams

Hey guys! 

Lately I'm having very weird dreams, from climbing up the ladder to being chased by some girl and jumping high in the air. Not that all my dreams are weird, I had one where I'm traveling with my favorite boy band. Sometimes I wonder if they're "sending" me some kind of message or warning that something will happen. It can get very scary.

Here's one weird dream/nightmare:
I'm running down my street and being chased by some girl on motorcycle. She's shooting me with the gun, some kind of laser/bullet is coming out of it, but she's missing because I'm jumping high in the air, it's like there's no gravity on here for me, I'm jumping and flying just like astronauts do in space, freely, I can do any move I want and I still won't fall on the ground. I'm losing her from my sight, she's driving away. Finally fell on ground, didn't hurt myself though. I'm still running, but I don't know from who. I turned around and saw some mad, bulky guy behind me, chasing me, oh great. I ran in my friends' yard, oh no the guy is still chasing me, but I'm on different part of the street, somehow. Nobody is opening the door so I'm running to other house that is in same yard, it's from other man, I know him, but what is his house doing in her yard, weird. The guy is behind me, it's like he can't see me. I ran behind some wall. There were two other men, they're looking at me and smiling. I'm trying to escape from this nightmare, I'm yelling CANCEL, CANCEL. There is some kind of button, it's like this was all video game. I clicked the "Close the window" button and I'm finally awake.

So this is one of my dreams/nightmares. It's weird because it's like I teleported from one part of the street to the other, weird. You know how in movies there is one scene and then it goes to other scene, well that's how it looked when I somehow "teleported". I went on one of those "dream meaning" website, no help.

Sooo this is all for now. Hope you liked it. If you'd like more stuff like this, please post in comment or tweet me on twitter. SMILE.

Twitter site for blog

Hey guys! I'm back from school yay :)

I've seen loads of people creating twitter for their blogs and what not else so I decided to make one too. This is >> official site for this blog << so if you like this blog, please follow on twitter to get the latest updates :)

Love you lots and have a good day

I'm scared of my future

Hey guys! How's everybody because I'm awesome if we ignore the fact that I have school today.

Yesterday while I tried to fall asleep my brain started to work and when my brain starts to work I start think about loads of things like where will I live in 10 years or what will I do in 10 years. So yesterdays "day dreaming" theme was my future. I'm planning to move out from here and move to UK because it's really hard to find a job here because of crisis and stuff. It kinda scares me to think that one day I might leave this country plus it will be my first time to leave it AND firs time to fly in plane. I mean I do love this country and I will miss it, but I will never probably find a job here if you're from Croatia or maybe heard about it, you know what I'm talking about. Of course there are always POSITIVE and NEGATIVE sides of moving out and leaving country:

POSITIVE
maybe will live better
have a chance to meet new people
find a job

NEGATIVE
maybe won't live better
maybe won't find a job
will be hard to find a flat
might get lost
will miss the country

but it doesn't have to be NEGATIVE always. My dream is to move to UK and become a successful youtuber and when I think about it, it's always POSITIVE.
To be honest with you guys, I will cry as well because when I left my house for a few days and went on a trip with scouts (on 3 days I think it was) I cried the last day because my parents weren't there and it hit me, but I got over it a little bit and then again I cried, but we all have to face that fear of living without parents, right? I'm still scared of thought of living my house, my country and my family, but it will be for my good. There's always good in bad.

This is all for now. Thank you for reading :) hope you have a great day in school/at work. BYE.

Being the youngest child

Hey guys! How's everybody? 

On my opinion, being the youngest child is not that funny as it might sound to some people. I'm the youngest child and I don't like it because my older brother is kind of mean to me, okay we play games sometimes together and stuff, but that's really rare. When he needs something he calls me, okay if he's sick I will help him, but he's like literally lazy plus he is mommy's prince which means that I do most of the job. For example if mom goes to work she always writes this little note saying who has what to do this is what it usually says:

"Dear kids
Daughter- wash the dishes, clean the floor, clean your bedroom, clean kitchen too, don't make a mess
Son- make a bed, learn for school if you have anything"

That's all he gets. I'm pretty mad, but I can't do anything about it because when I complain it's always "You're a girl" or "Your brother is upstairs and you're here". It's not that I hate my life or family, love it, but there comes those moments when I just want to scream.

This is it for now :) I hope I'm not the only one here who thinks the same 

Thinking about recording videos and I'm probably the worst friend/daughter ever

Hey guys! Happy Easter, I know I'm a little bit late (1 day), but better ever than never.

So for past few months I was thinking about recording videos, like vlogs and stuff and I think I'm gonna do it soon, but not sure when. Watching how other youtubers started and how they're now, recording with other people, have loads of friends, it makes me do it because I want to have loads of friends that understand me, I want to record videos, I want to be like them. As always there is something that is stopping you from recording and that is my shyness. I'm really shy plus I'm not alone in a house which makes it double awkward for me, but I will try to record I promise.

Other thing that I wanted to talk about is how I'm probably the worst friend/daughter and what not else ever. Like if it's some holiday like it was yesterday (Easter) I have problem saying "Happy Easter" to my family and friends, okay if it's trough facebook or twitter I can, but live like in real life, I can't. Even when it's someone's birthday I can't say "Happy birthday" I don't know why, it's like something is stopping me from doing it, like "No, don't you dare to say it, nope" or "Hey let's be a little bit rude". Before I want to say it I always say to myself "Okay, you will walk in that room and say it" and then I walk in and just nothing happens.

This is all what I wanted to talk about...for now. Hope you had a great Easter and time off (if you has any). BYE 

I don't understand girls/women and how I have fun

Hey guys! I got this thing on my mind for a long time so why not and share with you.


Yeah I'm a girl and yes it might be a little bit weird, but I don't understand girls/women. For example when I go shopping with my mom she says we will be done in 30 minutes to 1 hour and I'm like okay because it might take her/me awhile till I find shirt or shoes, but it's not 30 minutes to 1 hour, it's FOREVER. Recently I went shopping with her to buy some clothes for opera that I was going on with class- "I just need some nice white shirt and black jeans" and of course she said "Don't worry we will done fast", it wasn't fast, it was like 2 hours because she doesn't like that, we will get that later bla bla bla or maybe she saw some "gorgeous" shoes. 2 hours for one shirt, one jeans and some shoes, WHAT?! I told her I will go alone next time, but no "What if someone kidnaps you?" "What if you will get lost?", I know how to get home and I won't get lost, I'm not little kid anymore.

That's one of the reasons why I don't understand girls/women.


I'm teenager and of course sometimes I have to have fun, outside because "You can't be inside all the time" and "How do you even have fun inside, the fun is outside" as my lovely family would say. Yeah I listen to some of them and yes I go outside to have fun, but I only do it like once or twice in a year, might be weird for a teenage girl, but that's my life. Everybody has fun on their own way, some teenagers go to clubs or parks and I have fun with my dad. Almost every year, when it's Easter, we have this kind of "party" somewhere in our little town where we have bonfire, like huge and every year, when it is, I got with male people in my family (expect my brother, he stay home with his mommy, mommy's prince as I would call him) and that's how I have fun. I'd rather have fun on that way than go to some clubs and stuff.

Hope you liked it :) I just had to share this with you now because later I will probably forget about it, BYE.

Having problems with my hair and saying NO

Hey guys! If you see any swear words in this post, I'm sorry I just have to.


I am growing which means my face gets different which means hairstyle that I had before, that fitted me perfectly doesn't fit me that perfect anymore. Few months ago I had this weird hair style in which I looked maybe prettier than before, but now no forget about that, it doesn't fit me anymore. I look more weirder (is that even a word) than before, my face is round and chubby, but it never looked that round and chubby. I'm searching for new hair style, the problem is I can't imagine myself in any of those. Short hair to shoulders- nope fuck it, long straight hair- forget about that. I'm thinking about doing my hair by myself, since it's my hair and my hair stylist-dresser whatever you call them doesn't understand what I want and if she asks me if it okay that way I'm just like "Oh yeah, perfect" because I can't say no.

Yep that's my other problem, I can't say no to people, well if they'd offer me drugs or alcohol, I'd say no to that, but saying no to hair dresser-stylist (whatever) is impossible I just can't do it or even to lady in shop that is giving be bread and asking "Is that fine?" and I say yes, but actually it's no.
Let's say I'm at hair dresser-stylist and I ask for some hair style that I want bla bla. When she's almost at the end, she always asks me do I like it, of course, I say YES instead of NO. It happened to me once when she did it kind of wrong and asked me if I like it, I said YES, that's not how it goes. I just lie because it's difficult to me saying NO. It's like some little creature is inside of my head and makes me to say YES I LIKE IT instead of NO I DON'T LIKE IT. It's like that little creature is controlling me, aah I hate it.

That's all for now. If you have any hair style suggestion or maybe problem like I do, feel free to put it down in comments, I'd love to read it. BYE

I hate annoying people

Hey guys! 


We all know someone who is annoying or rude. Well I know loads of them and I'm not happy with that.
Here is what happened to me.

I was somewhere in public where you have to be quiet and I was sitting next to two girls. They were talking and stuff and since I'm having a little problem with socializing I wasn't sure to ask or not because obviously I'm scared of asking anyone anything. So I asked, but then something really annoying and rude happened. When I was gonna ask other girl something, her friend that was sitting next to me said "Shut up" with high tone and rudely and of course it was awkward to me and I started shaking a little bit. Right after she told me to shut up, she started talking with that girl like wow you can talk, but I can't ask a simple important to me question, what is your problem. I got pissed off really because I hate those types of people. It's like she's something special. What she told her isn't even that important as my question that was meant to be asked, girl please you're annoying as poo that doesn't want to wash off toilet. I was gonna yell at her, but there were too many people.That was so unfair and rude to be honest.

That's all what I wanted to say for now. Hope you liked it :) 

Scared of big dogs and I finally did it

Hello everybody! 

I'm scared of big dogs. Like if there is some big dog on a street there is no way I will go anywhere at that time.
How it all started?
I think I was 3rd grade of primary school. It was beautiful day, thought nothing could go wrong. I was on my way to the bus station, I wasn't alone, there were few older people. I was walking and then out of nowhere my friend's big dog attacked me, he started jumping on me, he was barking really loud, it looked like he was mad. Even though there were older people, like 3 or 4 of them, nobody helped me, someone turned around, but didn't do anything, just continued walking. Since then I'm scared of big dogs and I kind of lost trust in people. I was shaking and crying, but nobody cared.

Time for other story.
Few weeks ago I was talking about my social anxiety and how I'm scared to talk to older people. Well today I finally did it. I talked to someone older than me, like I talked without fear or shaking, usually I shake or I'm scared, but not today. I felt better, but to be honest I still kind of worried if I told what I planned to tell. This is just another hard level I passed :)

This was all for today :) BYE 

Computer addiction and internet friends

Hey guys! Since a lot of stuff has been happening to me lately, let's talk about them.

I'm always on computer expect when I'm not in a school, I agree with that one, but that doesn't mean I'm a computer addict, right? I mean I do go out when I need to go buy something or take out trash or feed a dog or go to school. To be honest, I feel more comfortable to be inside a house and on computer than to be somewhere outside with fake friends pretending they like me. My mom says that this is too much for me and that I'm still a child and that I should go out more and SOCIALIZE, okay mom, I understand you, but have you ever thought that I might feel more comfortable inside than outside, think about it, I can't do drugs because you're always here, I won't be late for lunch so you don't have to worry where your daughter is and what she's doing right now or with who. To my mom, it's never okay, if I'm outside I need to be home right at time she says so I won't miss something, I have to watch out if some crazy driver would kill me AND she is worried if I'm maybe taking some drugs or something, if I'm inside I'm too much inside, talking with strangers that I don't even know, not moving from my seat for hours (okay that's so not true, if I need to go on a toilet, I go or if I need to eat I eat, no problem). It's safer inside than outside, okay some of you might say "You can get kidnapped if you say your information to some pedophile" or "They can find you easily", okay you're right, but I'm NOT THAT STUPID to tell my information to some pedophile or to anyone on here and I'm not one of those "Pft he's my friend, I trust him, I've seen his picture, he's alright, trust me besides he said if I give him my address he will take me out of here", hey that's, I don't do that stuff, I know what's risky and what not.

Now internet friends, yeah I have them and a lot of them actually. They know me better than my real ones because most of us have same interests, for example, we like same music or boys or food. If I talk about something I like, they'll understand me because they like the same and of course on twitter you can choose who you want to follow so I won't follow some belieber out there if I'm not fan of Justin Bieber or smiler if I'm not fan of Miley Cyrus. "Of course they like you, they haven't seen you in real life so they don't know how they look like" hey trust me some of them don't even care about how you look besides most of them are here for the same reason I am, to find friends who like you. I know who is real friend and who is not.

So this was all for today :) thanks for reading who read it full :) hope you have a nice day and bye :)

Showing song to my teacher

Hey guys!

Today I had English and I decided to show a song to my teacher. I was shaking because I don't usually show any of my work to ANYONE. She said it is awesome. I was thinking to write more songs like that, but it's kinda hard.

1st April

Hey everybody!

So we all know what 1st of April means. JOKES. It's time for jokes and pranks, but when teachers uses April for giving heart attacks to their students, it's not funny. For example  while we were doing Easter eggs our Art teacher decided to scare us by saying "Do you know that you will have to do final test if you want to go to HIGH SCHOOL?", but of course we were in the middle of the work so we forgot that it's APRIL and well she won. Half of us got mini attacks.  
THEY SHOULD NOT ALLOW TEACHERS TO DO THAT.