Something random

Hey guys and gals! 

So all other posts had some 'theme' or 'topic' however you want to call it, but this one doesn't because I'm gonna talk about random stuff...enjoy.

As some of you may noticed I'm posting everyday on this blog, that's because it's summer which means I'm home all day and I don't need to learn stuff for school, for now. When I return to 'school mode' stuff will get harder because after I finish it (4 years) I will have to go and find a job which means (I keep saying this) I will have to study more so I can finish it how my mom imagined.
Since I started this blog I feel better in tons of different ways. I use to be shy to talk to ANYONE...dammit I have my volume to max. and I can still hear people talking, wtf, anyways this blogging really helped me to face my fears (before I was really scared of even having blog). If I continue like this I might aswell start a youtube channel (imagine how could it would be).

There is still something I'm scared of. New school. After this summer I won't be going to same school anymore. It's a different school with different people, what if I don't find friends there and what if they will 'hate' me or bully me, my biggest fear. SOMEONE HELP!!

Oh and also I was at grandma's yesterday and my diet failed. It wasn't a big thing actually, I just decided not to eat that much sweets anymore, but not for so long. As always I get bunch of food and sweets and as always I wanna eat it all just like NOM NOM NOM. I'm like Zombie and Cookie Monster in one :P

I hope you enjoyed this random post thingy and I hope you're having a great day. BYE 

Am I doing it right?

Hey guys! Stuff lately aren't going so well to be honest, for me at least.

In few months my whole world will start to sink if I don't pick the school. Here in Croatia after secondary or elementary school, I have to pick specific school that is educating for specific job and I don't know which one. My mind is full of thoughts about my future and school while other girls only think about money, parties and God knows what else not. I'm worried because while they're having fun I'm here sitting at home and searching for some school that might interest me. Am I doing it right? All of them picked some fine school with big dreams in their heads because they are "smart" not saying that they aren't, there are few of smart girls. I asked everybody to help me, mom, dad, I don't even want to ask grandma because she will start talking how it's not time for that now and how it's too late. I was going literally trough every school I found on internet and when I finally find one, somehow in my mind there is a picture how that might be hard or something.

For example I wanted to go for a cook and everything was fine until this happened in my mind:
Oh God you're going for a cook. Did you see Hell's Kitchen? Did you see how they work hard and how it's difficult? There is no way you will make it, you're loser, you'll fail, you'll get fired at the first day.

Okay thank you wonderful voice inside of my head telling me that I will fail. It's not like I'm planning to do it forever because my dream is to become a youtuber, but of course if I plan to move out from here, to start in other country, I will have to work as a cook somewhere so I can earn enough amount of money to pay for some flat there and bills too, until of course, I get chance to get paid or get that contract. Now I'm not being some spoiled little girl that is only thinking of money, but you do get paid and it is very important.

Am I doing it right? 

Having problems with my hair and saying NO

Hey guys! If you see any swear words in this post, I'm sorry I just have to.


I am growing which means my face gets different which means hairstyle that I had before, that fitted me perfectly doesn't fit me that perfect anymore. Few months ago I had this weird hair style in which I looked maybe prettier than before, but now no forget about that, it doesn't fit me anymore. I look more weirder (is that even a word) than before, my face is round and chubby, but it never looked that round and chubby. I'm searching for new hair style, the problem is I can't imagine myself in any of those. Short hair to shoulders- nope fuck it, long straight hair- forget about that. I'm thinking about doing my hair by myself, since it's my hair and my hair stylist-dresser whatever you call them doesn't understand what I want and if she asks me if it okay that way I'm just like "Oh yeah, perfect" because I can't say no.

Yep that's my other problem, I can't say no to people, well if they'd offer me drugs or alcohol, I'd say no to that, but saying no to hair dresser-stylist (whatever) is impossible I just can't do it or even to lady in shop that is giving be bread and asking "Is that fine?" and I say yes, but actually it's no.
Let's say I'm at hair dresser-stylist and I ask for some hair style that I want bla bla. When she's almost at the end, she always asks me do I like it, of course, I say YES instead of NO. It happened to me once when she did it kind of wrong and asked me if I like it, I said YES, that's not how it goes. I just lie because it's difficult to me saying NO. It's like some little creature is inside of my head and makes me to say YES I LIKE IT instead of NO I DON'T LIKE IT. It's like that little creature is controlling me, aah I hate it.

That's all for now. If you have any hair style suggestion or maybe problem like I do, feel free to put it down in comments, I'd love to read it. BYE

I hate this

Hello everybody!

I'm having a hard time this year because I'm finishing 8th grade and I still don't know in which school I will go after 8th grade.I don't know how it is in your country but here after 8th grade we're going in secondary school(high school),you have to be 15-16 years old.The problem is that I have no idea in which type of school to go.Every school is specific for some job so I have to pick the school with job I want to do,I don't know how to explain it better.I'm not perfect at school like all 5(A's if you are from UK).
Some subjects I'm not good at:

• Maths
• Chemistry
• Physics
• Croatian 

and most of school are asking for those subjects,I just can't somehow learn them.It's almost the end of 8th grade,few more months and I still don't know what I'm gonna do in future,it all depends on school I will go to.Everybody is asking me "In which school are you going?" and I'm like "Oh I don't know yet...um".I need some serious help here,now if you ask me what I want to be in future,this will be answer "I want to be youtuber or professional blogger just like Zoella,Alfie,Jim and other youtubers,I want to live like them but it's hard because there is no school for youtubers or bloggers.All I'm asking for is HELP from anyone,I need help,even my parents don't know in which school I will go because for most stuff I'm useless expect for eating,sleeping,blogging,talking to complete strangers and do some manly stuff.

If you have any idea PLEASE post in comment,it would mean everything to me :)