Being the youngest child

Hey guys! How's everybody? 

On my opinion, being the youngest child is not that funny as it might sound to some people. I'm the youngest child and I don't like it because my older brother is kind of mean to me, okay we play games sometimes together and stuff, but that's really rare. When he needs something he calls me, okay if he's sick I will help him, but he's like literally lazy plus he is mommy's prince which means that I do most of the job. For example if mom goes to work she always writes this little note saying who has what to do this is what it usually says:

"Dear kids
Daughter- wash the dishes, clean the floor, clean your bedroom, clean kitchen too, don't make a mess
Son- make a bed, learn for school if you have anything"

That's all he gets. I'm pretty mad, but I can't do anything about it because when I complain it's always "You're a girl" or "Your brother is upstairs and you're here". It's not that I hate my life or family, love it, but there comes those moments when I just want to scream.

This is it for now :) I hope I'm not the only one here who thinks the same 

Having problems with my hair and saying NO

Hey guys! If you see any swear words in this post, I'm sorry I just have to.


I am growing which means my face gets different which means hairstyle that I had before, that fitted me perfectly doesn't fit me that perfect anymore. Few months ago I had this weird hair style in which I looked maybe prettier than before, but now no forget about that, it doesn't fit me anymore. I look more weirder (is that even a word) than before, my face is round and chubby, but it never looked that round and chubby. I'm searching for new hair style, the problem is I can't imagine myself in any of those. Short hair to shoulders- nope fuck it, long straight hair- forget about that. I'm thinking about doing my hair by myself, since it's my hair and my hair stylist-dresser whatever you call them doesn't understand what I want and if she asks me if it okay that way I'm just like "Oh yeah, perfect" because I can't say no.

Yep that's my other problem, I can't say no to people, well if they'd offer me drugs or alcohol, I'd say no to that, but saying no to hair dresser-stylist (whatever) is impossible I just can't do it or even to lady in shop that is giving be bread and asking "Is that fine?" and I say yes, but actually it's no.
Let's say I'm at hair dresser-stylist and I ask for some hair style that I want bla bla. When she's almost at the end, she always asks me do I like it, of course, I say YES instead of NO. It happened to me once when she did it kind of wrong and asked me if I like it, I said YES, that's not how it goes. I just lie because it's difficult to me saying NO. It's like some little creature is inside of my head and makes me to say YES I LIKE IT instead of NO I DON'T LIKE IT. It's like that little creature is controlling me, aah I hate it.

That's all for now. If you have any hair style suggestion or maybe problem like I do, feel free to put it down in comments, I'd love to read it. BYE

Computer addiction and internet friends

Hey guys! Since a lot of stuff has been happening to me lately, let's talk about them.

I'm always on computer expect when I'm not in a school, I agree with that one, but that doesn't mean I'm a computer addict, right? I mean I do go out when I need to go buy something or take out trash or feed a dog or go to school. To be honest, I feel more comfortable to be inside a house and on computer than to be somewhere outside with fake friends pretending they like me. My mom says that this is too much for me and that I'm still a child and that I should go out more and SOCIALIZE, okay mom, I understand you, but have you ever thought that I might feel more comfortable inside than outside, think about it, I can't do drugs because you're always here, I won't be late for lunch so you don't have to worry where your daughter is and what she's doing right now or with who. To my mom, it's never okay, if I'm outside I need to be home right at time she says so I won't miss something, I have to watch out if some crazy driver would kill me AND she is worried if I'm maybe taking some drugs or something, if I'm inside I'm too much inside, talking with strangers that I don't even know, not moving from my seat for hours (okay that's so not true, if I need to go on a toilet, I go or if I need to eat I eat, no problem). It's safer inside than outside, okay some of you might say "You can get kidnapped if you say your information to some pedophile" or "They can find you easily", okay you're right, but I'm NOT THAT STUPID to tell my information to some pedophile or to anyone on here and I'm not one of those "Pft he's my friend, I trust him, I've seen his picture, he's alright, trust me besides he said if I give him my address he will take me out of here", hey that's, I don't do that stuff, I know what's risky and what not.

Now internet friends, yeah I have them and a lot of them actually. They know me better than my real ones because most of us have same interests, for example, we like same music or boys or food. If I talk about something I like, they'll understand me because they like the same and of course on twitter you can choose who you want to follow so I won't follow some belieber out there if I'm not fan of Justin Bieber or smiler if I'm not fan of Miley Cyrus. "Of course they like you, they haven't seen you in real life so they don't know how they look like" hey trust me some of them don't even care about how you look besides most of them are here for the same reason I am, to find friends who like you. I know who is real friend and who is not.

So this was all for today :) thanks for reading who read it full :) hope you have a nice day and bye :)

Your prince/princess

Hey everybody! I woke up an hour ago and this idea came to my mind so here we go.

All girls on the world are waiting for their PRINCE, some of them are 10, some are 17, some are even 24, but age doesn't matter because you can be 24 and still didn't get first kiss neither boyfriend, if you're strong enough you will wait for him. Hey I'm almost adult (few more years) and I still haven't got a boyfriend neither my first kiss while 70% of girls in my school got that all and also got their heart broken. Now I don't care about their lives or all their boyfriends, it's their life and not mine. So there's something you should know, if you're going to school and you don't have a boyfriend or didn't get your first kiss THAT'S ALRIGHT, it might sound crazy to you and they might call you loser, but they changed everything, "If you don't get boyfriend by now you're crazy and you'll never get married" <-- that's wrong and it's not true. If you get your first kiss in school or boyfriends, that's alright, but your relationship won't last longer than maybe two weeks to one month because it's impossible, WHY? well think about it, you're in same building as your boyfriend and you can see him every minute, but of course what boys would be if they wouldn't be with other girls, you will get mad and jealous, he will fall in love with other one and there you go, you wasted your first kiss and your time and love on someone who cheated on you.
"But we have to be together all time, that's key to perfect relationship" FALSE, key to perfect relationship is little bit of freedom, you can't be together whole time, you will start to be annoying to him and he will ask for some time away from you because he wants to be out with his friends without you there because he needs to talk about some stuff WITHOUT YOU. Now, it's your life and you do with it what you want, but I'm just giving you some advice and telling you the truth, you do how you want to do.

P.S same story goes to boys, it's same with girls

I hope I helped to some of you :)

My thoughts: South Park: The Stick of Truth

Hey! 

I started playing South Park month ago and I still haven't finished it, but I'm gonna finish it soon, I'm doing it slow because some parts are kind of odd, those who played it will understand me. Anyways, the game is really awesome, everything is detailed and every mission is worth playing.
It has its really funny and awesome parts and there are loads of them. I saw PewDiePie playing it so why not and try it because like all games he's playing are interesting. At first it was kind of hard for me, but I got use to it and now I'm playing it with no problems. The part that I love a lot is the start, somewhere there, where you have to choose your name, but no matter what you type in you're still Douchebag. Another awesome thing is Facebook that or at least that's how it's called in game. Some mission require full control and relaxation.
Now let's talk about odd parts. There're not a lot of them so don't worry, but when there is some, it can last days until you finish it. Since my computer is in living room and living room is the most "visited" room in the house, I had to do slow on those odd parts and I don't know how I did it because I was barely even looking. To be honest, I never thought there were any odd parts, I thought it's just another normal game with missions, but it wasn't. Hey, when you get the game, you have to finish it no matter what or that's at least what I think.

I recommend this game to anyone who likes doing missions, fighting and killing.

Hot boys and look alikes

Hey!I had wonderful breakfast and now it's time to talk about hot boys!

We've all met at least one hot boy in our life or just seen him, doesn't matter. Somehow they are easily to fall in love with which can be difficult for most of us because those hot boys fall in love with hot girls which makes more difficulties for us "not hot" girls. If you're not "pretty" enough you don't have a chance at all and that's what I hate. So what if I'm not "pretty" enough, just because I'm not "pretty" doesn't mean that I'm not a good person, hey most of those hot girls are rude, they might date you but when they find someone hotter than you, you're out of league. Sometimes they over-judge (I have no idea if that's even a word) us. Think about it, in most of cases, not "pretty" enough girl wouldn't leave you like that because mostly those girls don't care about other boys if they have you, of course, there are those who think that when they got one they can get whole population, but that's really rare. Now most of you will say "If he doesn't like her, why should he date her?" well you see sometimes those hot boys fall in love with those not "pretty" enough girls, but they don't tell them because they want to keep good reputation aka being cool so they date some hot girl that he doesn't even know or like.

Now let's talk about people that look like someone you know. Since I'm big fan of One Direction, I know every little piece of their body/face, that might sound creepy, but it's true because when you love somebody a lot and you spend your free time searching for their pictures you remember every detail on them. In my town there are a lot of boys that look like one of them (1D) and when there is somebody that looks like someone you love, you just start going crazy and ask yourself what if they're something related to them or what if this is a sign from God that you have a chance or He maybe sent you that boy so you could be happy or to try to be with him or something like that. Yes, that is happening to me and it can be hard sometimes but I control myself and I don't even look anymore at them because I know they're there and no matter how hard I try nothing will happen. The problem is that those look alike boys are just making think that they're here and that I need to hug them, sometimes they can even confuse you so you go and hug that person thinking it's someone who you know, if you get me what I'm trying to say. I even ask myself  "Why me?" "Why here?" but I get no answers which is little bit sad and disappointing.

This was all for now because I have to go soon so I hope you enjoyed this :) have a good day,bye!

"It will get better","Don't expect too much because you might get disappointed" and puberty

Hey!

I was thinking guys and you know how always, when you're in bad mood, somebody says "Don't worry it will get better.", well I don't understand that, how do they know it will get better, this might sound crazy but it's true.I mean it became the thing that we, all of us, say to someone in bad mood, but what if it doesn't get better, what if it gets worse, it's worrying me sometimes because whenever I'm in bad mood I always think of that "It will get better" and somehow I'm starting to think that one day I will be happy and live where I wanted with my from dreams husband. Then there is "Don't expect too much because you might get disappointed" that tells us not to expect much just like I expect it will get better and that I will live in my promise land with my husband. To me it doesn't make sense at all because when you hope it will get better mostly you expect too much but if you expect too much you will get disappointed, those two stuff don't go together don't they.

We can also say "It will get better" to the person that wants to get prettier, mostly teenagers, and it's mostly puberty's fault. Now I'm sure we all know what puberty is, that "phase" or "thing" that was meant to change how you look or how you act, well when you see all those famous people today and them when they were kids/teenagers you will see big difference, they changed a lot and they got prettier and it's all puberty's work. To some teenagers puberty "comes" early and to some it's "late", well I'd say puberty is being late in my case because hey I'm still same old,not so pretty girl with chubby face and weird smile. I just hope puberty "hits" me soon because I'm planning to meet my idols in the future and I want to be pretty so they like me...yeah...like me.

I'd write it a little bit longer but I have to get ready for school so by for now :) 

Rant about school

Alright,so everybody knows what school is and how it is PAIN IN THE ASS to kids/teenagers that are going in it.Well today I'm gonna talk about school and how school should improve and add few new things.

School is place for learning and meeting new friends but in school some of us also get bullied and I know that every kid/teenager at school gets bullied,no matter how "cool" he/she is,still gets bullied because of the way they look or dress or how rich/poor they are and it's sad really.When someone gets bullied,the kid that is victim doesn't want to talk about it because it is scared of bully,maybe because bully told them if they tell anyone that they will kill him or stuff like that,believe me it's possible.There is this system with detentions and stuff when somebody is bad,they get detention or punished on some kind of ways,but that doesn't work,it almost never works,they don't even care because they want to be "cool",no matter how many times they get punished they will still continue to bully other kids,I think that system is not good enough,it has to be stricter.In every school there is that kind of kid that has special treatment because he/she is sick on some kind of ways or something like that and often those kids that have special treatment they of course get treated better than other kids.Let's say that the kid with special treatment is bad,rude and bully,for normal kids in my school you get punished/grounded 2-3 times and then you're out of school but for that kid with special treatment it's different.That kid can be warned hundreds of times,grounded hundreds of time but he still wouldn't be expelled/kicked out from school which is I think not fair,okay he has special treatment yeah that's alright but there has to be that line where if he crosses it,he is out from school because the other way he will continue breaking stuff and bullying other kids because he knows he can do it infinite times without getting kicked out of school.

The other thing I wanted to talk about in school is food,well in some schools.Food in school is healthy,sometimes and yes I'm okay with that but in some schools they are not giving enough food.Every kid in school get same amount of food but sometimes it's not enough.For example if there is 20 kids that are getting food from school,there is 20 plates of food with same amount on each plate but for some kids it isn't enough.They want more and the only way they can get more if some kid in their class is sick and they're not in school at the moment.I think kitchen in some schools should have some extra food by side if someone wants more.That's only my opinion,you can say what you want.


This is it for now,I said all I wanted to say :) If you have anything else to say please put in comments and I will be happy to read it :)