Thinking about recording videos and I'm probably the worst friend/daughter ever

Hey guys! Happy Easter, I know I'm a little bit late (1 day), but better ever than never.

So for past few months I was thinking about recording videos, like vlogs and stuff and I think I'm gonna do it soon, but not sure when. Watching how other youtubers started and how they're now, recording with other people, have loads of friends, it makes me do it because I want to have loads of friends that understand me, I want to record videos, I want to be like them. As always there is something that is stopping you from recording and that is my shyness. I'm really shy plus I'm not alone in a house which makes it double awkward for me, but I will try to record I promise.

Other thing that I wanted to talk about is how I'm probably the worst friend/daughter and what not else ever. Like if it's some holiday like it was yesterday (Easter) I have problem saying "Happy Easter" to my family and friends, okay if it's trough facebook or twitter I can, but live like in real life, I can't. Even when it's someone's birthday I can't say "Happy birthday" I don't know why, it's like something is stopping me from doing it, like "No, don't you dare to say it, nope" or "Hey let's be a little bit rude". Before I want to say it I always say to myself "Okay, you will walk in that room and say it" and then I walk in and just nothing happens.

This is all what I wanted to talk about...for now. Hope you had a great Easter and time off (if you has any). BYE 

My problem: social anxiety

Hey! I'm back from school so I decided to share something with you. I don't even know how I did this because often I'm scared, but this is the only way.

I have social anxiety which is really hard for me especially when I'm presenting in front of the people. Today I had to present in front of 20+ people and I was feeling uncomfortable and I'm still shaking a little bit and worrying what they think about me, I'm so scared right now and I don't even know how I function.
Here's how it happened:
It was another bad day for me in the school, I got 1 (F) and then Geography class came. It became worse that it couldn't get any worse. Teacher said that she's gonna pick few people for presentations and I was praying to God not to be me, I was really nervous and then she opened me and said my name, it was like hell. So I made it and today I presented, I was letting other people to go before me because I was scared. My time came and I sat on the chair in front of my classmates and my teacher, I didn't feel comfortable. I was saying everything so fast that I don't even know if they understood anything, I was slightly shaking too, but they didn't notice it, I hope. The problem was even bigger when I couldn't find arrow keys on laptop and they started yelling "Press the arrow keys", but I was in kind of panic and then I pressed random button. After I was done with presenting I just didn't know what to do, so I went to my seat and teacher asked other what they think about it, another bad moment, wow 3 in row. I just couldn't wait till I get home and share this with someone, somehow.
Nobody, expect my mom, knows that I have social anxiety, it's giving me a big problems in my life, like HUGE. Why me?