Thinking about recording videos and I'm probably the worst friend/daughter ever

Hey guys! Happy Easter, I know I'm a little bit late (1 day), but better ever than never.

So for past few months I was thinking about recording videos, like vlogs and stuff and I think I'm gonna do it soon, but not sure when. Watching how other youtubers started and how they're now, recording with other people, have loads of friends, it makes me do it because I want to have loads of friends that understand me, I want to record videos, I want to be like them. As always there is something that is stopping you from recording and that is my shyness. I'm really shy plus I'm not alone in a house which makes it double awkward for me, but I will try to record I promise.

Other thing that I wanted to talk about is how I'm probably the worst friend/daughter and what not else ever. Like if it's some holiday like it was yesterday (Easter) I have problem saying "Happy Easter" to my family and friends, okay if it's trough facebook or twitter I can, but live like in real life, I can't. Even when it's someone's birthday I can't say "Happy birthday" I don't know why, it's like something is stopping me from doing it, like "No, don't you dare to say it, nope" or "Hey let's be a little bit rude". Before I want to say it I always say to myself "Okay, you will walk in that room and say it" and then I walk in and just nothing happens.

This is all what I wanted to talk about...for now. Hope you had a great Easter and time off (if you has any). BYE 

I don't understand girls/women and how I have fun

Hey guys! I got this thing on my mind for a long time so why not and share with you.


Yeah I'm a girl and yes it might be a little bit weird, but I don't understand girls/women. For example when I go shopping with my mom she says we will be done in 30 minutes to 1 hour and I'm like okay because it might take her/me awhile till I find shirt or shoes, but it's not 30 minutes to 1 hour, it's FOREVER. Recently I went shopping with her to buy some clothes for opera that I was going on with class- "I just need some nice white shirt and black jeans" and of course she said "Don't worry we will done fast", it wasn't fast, it was like 2 hours because she doesn't like that, we will get that later bla bla bla or maybe she saw some "gorgeous" shoes. 2 hours for one shirt, one jeans and some shoes, WHAT?! I told her I will go alone next time, but no "What if someone kidnaps you?" "What if you will get lost?", I know how to get home and I won't get lost, I'm not little kid anymore.

That's one of the reasons why I don't understand girls/women.


I'm teenager and of course sometimes I have to have fun, outside because "You can't be inside all the time" and "How do you even have fun inside, the fun is outside" as my lovely family would say. Yeah I listen to some of them and yes I go outside to have fun, but I only do it like once or twice in a year, might be weird for a teenage girl, but that's my life. Everybody has fun on their own way, some teenagers go to clubs or parks and I have fun with my dad. Almost every year, when it's Easter, we have this kind of "party" somewhere in our little town where we have bonfire, like huge and every year, when it is, I got with male people in my family (expect my brother, he stay home with his mommy, mommy's prince as I would call him) and that's how I have fun. I'd rather have fun on that way than go to some clubs and stuff.

Hope you liked it :) I just had to share this with you now because later I will probably forget about it, BYE.