Having problems with my hair and saying NO

Hey guys! If you see any swear words in this post, I'm sorry I just have to.


I am growing which means my face gets different which means hairstyle that I had before, that fitted me perfectly doesn't fit me that perfect anymore. Few months ago I had this weird hair style in which I looked maybe prettier than before, but now no forget about that, it doesn't fit me anymore. I look more weirder (is that even a word) than before, my face is round and chubby, but it never looked that round and chubby. I'm searching for new hair style, the problem is I can't imagine myself in any of those. Short hair to shoulders- nope fuck it, long straight hair- forget about that. I'm thinking about doing my hair by myself, since it's my hair and my hair stylist-dresser whatever you call them doesn't understand what I want and if she asks me if it okay that way I'm just like "Oh yeah, perfect" because I can't say no.

Yep that's my other problem, I can't say no to people, well if they'd offer me drugs or alcohol, I'd say no to that, but saying no to hair dresser-stylist (whatever) is impossible I just can't do it or even to lady in shop that is giving be bread and asking "Is that fine?" and I say yes, but actually it's no.
Let's say I'm at hair dresser-stylist and I ask for some hair style that I want bla bla. When she's almost at the end, she always asks me do I like it, of course, I say YES instead of NO. It happened to me once when she did it kind of wrong and asked me if I like it, I said YES, that's not how it goes. I just lie because it's difficult to me saying NO. It's like some little creature is inside of my head and makes me to say YES I LIKE IT instead of NO I DON'T LIKE IT. It's like that little creature is controlling me, aah I hate it.

That's all for now. If you have any hair style suggestion or maybe problem like I do, feel free to put it down in comments, I'd love to read it. BYE

Computer addiction and internet friends

Hey guys! Since a lot of stuff has been happening to me lately, let's talk about them.

I'm always on computer expect when I'm not in a school, I agree with that one, but that doesn't mean I'm a computer addict, right? I mean I do go out when I need to go buy something or take out trash or feed a dog or go to school. To be honest, I feel more comfortable to be inside a house and on computer than to be somewhere outside with fake friends pretending they like me. My mom says that this is too much for me and that I'm still a child and that I should go out more and SOCIALIZE, okay mom, I understand you, but have you ever thought that I might feel more comfortable inside than outside, think about it, I can't do drugs because you're always here, I won't be late for lunch so you don't have to worry where your daughter is and what she's doing right now or with who. To my mom, it's never okay, if I'm outside I need to be home right at time she says so I won't miss something, I have to watch out if some crazy driver would kill me AND she is worried if I'm maybe taking some drugs or something, if I'm inside I'm too much inside, talking with strangers that I don't even know, not moving from my seat for hours (okay that's so not true, if I need to go on a toilet, I go or if I need to eat I eat, no problem). It's safer inside than outside, okay some of you might say "You can get kidnapped if you say your information to some pedophile" or "They can find you easily", okay you're right, but I'm NOT THAT STUPID to tell my information to some pedophile or to anyone on here and I'm not one of those "Pft he's my friend, I trust him, I've seen his picture, he's alright, trust me besides he said if I give him my address he will take me out of here", hey that's, I don't do that stuff, I know what's risky and what not.

Now internet friends, yeah I have them and a lot of them actually. They know me better than my real ones because most of us have same interests, for example, we like same music or boys or food. If I talk about something I like, they'll understand me because they like the same and of course on twitter you can choose who you want to follow so I won't follow some belieber out there if I'm not fan of Justin Bieber or smiler if I'm not fan of Miley Cyrus. "Of course they like you, they haven't seen you in real life so they don't know how they look like" hey trust me some of them don't even care about how you look besides most of them are here for the same reason I am, to find friends who like you. I know who is real friend and who is not.

So this was all for today :) thanks for reading who read it full :) hope you have a nice day and bye :)