I don't understand girls/women and how I have fun

Hey guys! I got this thing on my mind for a long time so why not and share with you.


Yeah I'm a girl and yes it might be a little bit weird, but I don't understand girls/women. For example when I go shopping with my mom she says we will be done in 30 minutes to 1 hour and I'm like okay because it might take her/me awhile till I find shirt or shoes, but it's not 30 minutes to 1 hour, it's FOREVER. Recently I went shopping with her to buy some clothes for opera that I was going on with class- "I just need some nice white shirt and black jeans" and of course she said "Don't worry we will done fast", it wasn't fast, it was like 2 hours because she doesn't like that, we will get that later bla bla bla or maybe she saw some "gorgeous" shoes. 2 hours for one shirt, one jeans and some shoes, WHAT?! I told her I will go alone next time, but no "What if someone kidnaps you?" "What if you will get lost?", I know how to get home and I won't get lost, I'm not little kid anymore.

That's one of the reasons why I don't understand girls/women.


I'm teenager and of course sometimes I have to have fun, outside because "You can't be inside all the time" and "How do you even have fun inside, the fun is outside" as my lovely family would say. Yeah I listen to some of them and yes I go outside to have fun, but I only do it like once or twice in a year, might be weird for a teenage girl, but that's my life. Everybody has fun on their own way, some teenagers go to clubs or parks and I have fun with my dad. Almost every year, when it's Easter, we have this kind of "party" somewhere in our little town where we have bonfire, like huge and every year, when it is, I got with male people in my family (expect my brother, he stay home with his mommy, mommy's prince as I would call him) and that's how I have fun. I'd rather have fun on that way than go to some clubs and stuff.

Hope you liked it :) I just had to share this with you now because later I will probably forget about it, BYE.

Having problems with my hair and saying NO

Hey guys! If you see any swear words in this post, I'm sorry I just have to.


I am growing which means my face gets different which means hairstyle that I had before, that fitted me perfectly doesn't fit me that perfect anymore. Few months ago I had this weird hair style in which I looked maybe prettier than before, but now no forget about that, it doesn't fit me anymore. I look more weirder (is that even a word) than before, my face is round and chubby, but it never looked that round and chubby. I'm searching for new hair style, the problem is I can't imagine myself in any of those. Short hair to shoulders- nope fuck it, long straight hair- forget about that. I'm thinking about doing my hair by myself, since it's my hair and my hair stylist-dresser whatever you call them doesn't understand what I want and if she asks me if it okay that way I'm just like "Oh yeah, perfect" because I can't say no.

Yep that's my other problem, I can't say no to people, well if they'd offer me drugs or alcohol, I'd say no to that, but saying no to hair dresser-stylist (whatever) is impossible I just can't do it or even to lady in shop that is giving be bread and asking "Is that fine?" and I say yes, but actually it's no.
Let's say I'm at hair dresser-stylist and I ask for some hair style that I want bla bla. When she's almost at the end, she always asks me do I like it, of course, I say YES instead of NO. It happened to me once when she did it kind of wrong and asked me if I like it, I said YES, that's not how it goes. I just lie because it's difficult to me saying NO. It's like some little creature is inside of my head and makes me to say YES I LIKE IT instead of NO I DON'T LIKE IT. It's like that little creature is controlling me, aah I hate it.

That's all for now. If you have any hair style suggestion or maybe problem like I do, feel free to put it down in comments, I'd love to read it. BYE

I hate annoying people

Hey guys! 


We all know someone who is annoying or rude. Well I know loads of them and I'm not happy with that.
Here is what happened to me.

I was somewhere in public where you have to be quiet and I was sitting next to two girls. They were talking and stuff and since I'm having a little problem with socializing I wasn't sure to ask or not because obviously I'm scared of asking anyone anything. So I asked, but then something really annoying and rude happened. When I was gonna ask other girl something, her friend that was sitting next to me said "Shut up" with high tone and rudely and of course it was awkward to me and I started shaking a little bit. Right after she told me to shut up, she started talking with that girl like wow you can talk, but I can't ask a simple important to me question, what is your problem. I got pissed off really because I hate those types of people. It's like she's something special. What she told her isn't even that important as my question that was meant to be asked, girl please you're annoying as poo that doesn't want to wash off toilet. I was gonna yell at her, but there were too many people.That was so unfair and rude to be honest.

That's all what I wanted to say for now. Hope you liked it :) 

Scared of big dogs and I finally did it

Hello everybody! 

I'm scared of big dogs. Like if there is some big dog on a street there is no way I will go anywhere at that time.
How it all started?
I think I was 3rd grade of primary school. It was beautiful day, thought nothing could go wrong. I was on my way to the bus station, I wasn't alone, there were few older people. I was walking and then out of nowhere my friend's big dog attacked me, he started jumping on me, he was barking really loud, it looked like he was mad. Even though there were older people, like 3 or 4 of them, nobody helped me, someone turned around, but didn't do anything, just continued walking. Since then I'm scared of big dogs and I kind of lost trust in people. I was shaking and crying, but nobody cared.

Time for other story.
Few weeks ago I was talking about my social anxiety and how I'm scared to talk to older people. Well today I finally did it. I talked to someone older than me, like I talked without fear or shaking, usually I shake or I'm scared, but not today. I felt better, but to be honest I still kind of worried if I told what I planned to tell. This is just another hard level I passed :)

This was all for today :) BYE 

Computer addiction and internet friends

Hey guys! Since a lot of stuff has been happening to me lately, let's talk about them.

I'm always on computer expect when I'm not in a school, I agree with that one, but that doesn't mean I'm a computer addict, right? I mean I do go out when I need to go buy something or take out trash or feed a dog or go to school. To be honest, I feel more comfortable to be inside a house and on computer than to be somewhere outside with fake friends pretending they like me. My mom says that this is too much for me and that I'm still a child and that I should go out more and SOCIALIZE, okay mom, I understand you, but have you ever thought that I might feel more comfortable inside than outside, think about it, I can't do drugs because you're always here, I won't be late for lunch so you don't have to worry where your daughter is and what she's doing right now or with who. To my mom, it's never okay, if I'm outside I need to be home right at time she says so I won't miss something, I have to watch out if some crazy driver would kill me AND she is worried if I'm maybe taking some drugs or something, if I'm inside I'm too much inside, talking with strangers that I don't even know, not moving from my seat for hours (okay that's so not true, if I need to go on a toilet, I go or if I need to eat I eat, no problem). It's safer inside than outside, okay some of you might say "You can get kidnapped if you say your information to some pedophile" or "They can find you easily", okay you're right, but I'm NOT THAT STUPID to tell my information to some pedophile or to anyone on here and I'm not one of those "Pft he's my friend, I trust him, I've seen his picture, he's alright, trust me besides he said if I give him my address he will take me out of here", hey that's, I don't do that stuff, I know what's risky and what not.

Now internet friends, yeah I have them and a lot of them actually. They know me better than my real ones because most of us have same interests, for example, we like same music or boys or food. If I talk about something I like, they'll understand me because they like the same and of course on twitter you can choose who you want to follow so I won't follow some belieber out there if I'm not fan of Justin Bieber or smiler if I'm not fan of Miley Cyrus. "Of course they like you, they haven't seen you in real life so they don't know how they look like" hey trust me some of them don't even care about how you look besides most of them are here for the same reason I am, to find friends who like you. I know who is real friend and who is not.

So this was all for today :) thanks for reading who read it full :) hope you have a nice day and bye :)

Showing song to my teacher

Hey guys!

Today I had English and I decided to show a song to my teacher. I was shaking because I don't usually show any of my work to ANYONE. She said it is awesome. I was thinking to write more songs like that, but it's kinda hard.

1st April

Hey everybody!

So we all know what 1st of April means. JOKES. It's time for jokes and pranks, but when teachers uses April for giving heart attacks to their students, it's not funny. For example  while we were doing Easter eggs our Art teacher decided to scare us by saying "Do you know that you will have to do final test if you want to go to HIGH SCHOOL?", but of course we were in the middle of the work so we forgot that it's APRIL and well she won. Half of us got mini attacks.  
THEY SHOULD NOT ALLOW TEACHERS TO DO THAT.