Haaai guys!
I've been thinking like a looooooooooooooot about my future lately and watching all those videos of Zoella and other youtubers in UK makes me wanna move there like NOW or when I get older... because it all looks nice and not so shitty like here. You can't even have a cat in this neighbourhood anymore. For example move to Brighton or London, I don't know it just looks good and people seem nice and even if not I'm okay with that because got use to it.
I just hope so hard one day I will move to UK somewhere, doesn't matter where and be a successful youtuber/blogger (MY DREAM ACTUALLY). I know I need a REAL JOB, but "FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS" right?
Hopefully I will end school in few years and start vlogging soon. I just keep thinking every day like "I'm gonna do it when everybody is outside" and then I'm like "I can't now, too shy". The biggest problem is that I don't know how old some of you guys, think is good to start vlogging at. So if some of you can suggest something down in comments, it would mean a lot :)
BYEEE
Showing posts with label shyness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label shyness. Show all posts
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Thursday, March 27, 2014
My problem: social anxiety
Hey! I'm back from school so I decided to share something with you. I don't even know how I did this because often I'm scared, but this is the only way.
I have social anxiety which is really hard for me especially when I'm presenting in front of the people. Today I had to present in front of 20+ people and I was feeling uncomfortable and I'm still shaking a little bit and worrying what they think about me, I'm so scared right now and I don't even know how I function.
Here's how it happened:
It was another bad day for me in the school, I got 1 (F) and then Geography class came. It became worse that it couldn't get any worse. Teacher said that she's gonna pick few people for presentations and I was praying to God not to be me, I was really nervous and then she opened me and said my name, it was like hell. So I made it and today I presented, I was letting other people to go before me because I was scared. My time came and I sat on the chair in front of my classmates and my teacher, I didn't feel comfortable. I was saying everything so fast that I don't even know if they understood anything, I was slightly shaking too, but they didn't notice it, I hope. The problem was even bigger when I couldn't find arrow keys on laptop and they started yelling "Press the arrow keys", but I was in kind of panic and then I pressed random button. After I was done with presenting I just didn't know what to do, so I went to my seat and teacher asked other what they think about it, another bad moment, wow 3 in row. I just couldn't wait till I get home and share this with someone, somehow.
Nobody, expect my mom, knows that I have social anxiety, it's giving me a big problems in my life, like HUGE. Why me?
I have social anxiety which is really hard for me especially when I'm presenting in front of the people. Today I had to present in front of 20+ people and I was feeling uncomfortable and I'm still shaking a little bit and worrying what they think about me, I'm so scared right now and I don't even know how I function.
Here's how it happened:
It was another bad day for me in the school, I got 1 (F) and then Geography class came. It became worse that it couldn't get any worse. Teacher said that she's gonna pick few people for presentations and I was praying to God not to be me, I was really nervous and then she opened me and said my name, it was like hell. So I made it and today I presented, I was letting other people to go before me because I was scared. My time came and I sat on the chair in front of my classmates and my teacher, I didn't feel comfortable. I was saying everything so fast that I don't even know if they understood anything, I was slightly shaking too, but they didn't notice it, I hope. The problem was even bigger when I couldn't find arrow keys on laptop and they started yelling "Press the arrow keys", but I was in kind of panic and then I pressed random button. After I was done with presenting I just didn't know what to do, so I went to my seat and teacher asked other what they think about it, another bad moment, wow 3 in row. I just couldn't wait till I get home and share this with someone, somehow.
Nobody, expect my mom, knows that I have social anxiety, it's giving me a big problems in my life, like HUGE. Why me?
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