I have to let him go

Hey guys! Haven't wrote any poem/song call it whatever you want, for a long time, so here it is.

I have to let him go
I have to let him flow, away

It will happen, I know
I will have to let him go
Oh God please no

If only God could hear me
It is starting to tear me, apart

He will have a wife
and live his perfect life
without me

I don't wanna go to the dentist

Hey guys! How's everybody? 

When it comes to brushing teeth, I'm not that person that will brush them all day and all night. It came to the stage where I forget to brush them. I have all my teeth, thank God, but the problem is that the front one, those two main, always get "sick", not the back ones, not the ones by the side, nope, just those two main that are at the front. I think it was last year, I was going to the dentist' and she was fixing one of those two at the front and she fixed them, even tho I didn't see the problem, but she's the dentist so whatever. Few days ago one of them, not fully, broke, like little, tiny part of it fell and it's on same side where she was fixing it so my mom said she's calling the dentist. Oh I can't wait till I get there and then listen to her talking about her family and stuff while fixing my tooth, oh how fun it will be. That's the only fun part there actually plus she's really good and patient. Hey, if she wasn't good and she didn't talk about her family and life, I wouldn't even go there because it will be hell.

To be honest, it's worrying me her reaction and what is she gonna do to me. When I'm on that big blue chair, she usually put some needle inside my tooth and then burns them, eew or give me injection with some water or whatever it is, scary. After that, I'm brushing my teeth for few days and then I totally forget and continue living my lazy, hungry life.

This is it for now guys! Hope you have a nice day and please wish me luck because I don't wanna come out crying for the first time going from the dentist. SMILE.

Weird dreams

Hey guys! 

Lately I'm having very weird dreams, from climbing up the ladder to being chased by some girl and jumping high in the air. Not that all my dreams are weird, I had one where I'm traveling with my favorite boy band. Sometimes I wonder if they're "sending" me some kind of message or warning that something will happen. It can get very scary.

Here's one weird dream/nightmare:
I'm running down my street and being chased by some girl on motorcycle. She's shooting me with the gun, some kind of laser/bullet is coming out of it, but she's missing because I'm jumping high in the air, it's like there's no gravity on here for me, I'm jumping and flying just like astronauts do in space, freely, I can do any move I want and I still won't fall on the ground. I'm losing her from my sight, she's driving away. Finally fell on ground, didn't hurt myself though. I'm still running, but I don't know from who. I turned around and saw some mad, bulky guy behind me, chasing me, oh great. I ran in my friends' yard, oh no the guy is still chasing me, but I'm on different part of the street, somehow. Nobody is opening the door so I'm running to other house that is in same yard, it's from other man, I know him, but what is his house doing in her yard, weird. The guy is behind me, it's like he can't see me. I ran behind some wall. There were two other men, they're looking at me and smiling. I'm trying to escape from this nightmare, I'm yelling CANCEL, CANCEL. There is some kind of button, it's like this was all video game. I clicked the "Close the window" button and I'm finally awake.

So this is one of my dreams/nightmares. It's weird because it's like I teleported from one part of the street to the other, weird. You know how in movies there is one scene and then it goes to other scene, well that's how it looked when I somehow "teleported". I went on one of those "dream meaning" website, no help.

Sooo this is all for now. Hope you liked it. If you'd like more stuff like this, please post in comment or tweet me on twitter. SMILE.

Twitter site for blog

Hey guys! I'm back from school yay :)

I've seen loads of people creating twitter for their blogs and what not else so I decided to make one too. This is >> official site for this blog << so if you like this blog, please follow on twitter to get the latest updates :)

Love you lots and have a good day

I'm scared of my future

Hey guys! How's everybody because I'm awesome if we ignore the fact that I have school today.

Yesterday while I tried to fall asleep my brain started to work and when my brain starts to work I start think about loads of things like where will I live in 10 years or what will I do in 10 years. So yesterdays "day dreaming" theme was my future. I'm planning to move out from here and move to UK because it's really hard to find a job here because of crisis and stuff. It kinda scares me to think that one day I might leave this country plus it will be my first time to leave it AND firs time to fly in plane. I mean I do love this country and I will miss it, but I will never probably find a job here if you're from Croatia or maybe heard about it, you know what I'm talking about. Of course there are always POSITIVE and NEGATIVE sides of moving out and leaving country:

POSITIVE
maybe will live better
have a chance to meet new people
find a job

NEGATIVE
maybe won't live better
maybe won't find a job
will be hard to find a flat
might get lost
will miss the country

but it doesn't have to be NEGATIVE always. My dream is to move to UK and become a successful youtuber and when I think about it, it's always POSITIVE.
To be honest with you guys, I will cry as well because when I left my house for a few days and went on a trip with scouts (on 3 days I think it was) I cried the last day because my parents weren't there and it hit me, but I got over it a little bit and then again I cried, but we all have to face that fear of living without parents, right? I'm still scared of thought of living my house, my country and my family, but it will be for my good. There's always good in bad.

This is all for now. Thank you for reading :) hope you have a great day in school/at work. BYE.

Being the youngest child

Hey guys! How's everybody? 

On my opinion, being the youngest child is not that funny as it might sound to some people. I'm the youngest child and I don't like it because my older brother is kind of mean to me, okay we play games sometimes together and stuff, but that's really rare. When he needs something he calls me, okay if he's sick I will help him, but he's like literally lazy plus he is mommy's prince which means that I do most of the job. For example if mom goes to work she always writes this little note saying who has what to do this is what it usually says:

"Dear kids
Daughter- wash the dishes, clean the floor, clean your bedroom, clean kitchen too, don't make a mess
Son- make a bed, learn for school if you have anything"

That's all he gets. I'm pretty mad, but I can't do anything about it because when I complain it's always "You're a girl" or "Your brother is upstairs and you're here". It's not that I hate my life or family, love it, but there comes those moments when I just want to scream.

This is it for now :) I hope I'm not the only one here who thinks the same 

Thinking about recording videos and I'm probably the worst friend/daughter ever

Hey guys! Happy Easter, I know I'm a little bit late (1 day), but better ever than never.

So for past few months I was thinking about recording videos, like vlogs and stuff and I think I'm gonna do it soon, but not sure when. Watching how other youtubers started and how they're now, recording with other people, have loads of friends, it makes me do it because I want to have loads of friends that understand me, I want to record videos, I want to be like them. As always there is something that is stopping you from recording and that is my shyness. I'm really shy plus I'm not alone in a house which makes it double awkward for me, but I will try to record I promise.

Other thing that I wanted to talk about is how I'm probably the worst friend/daughter and what not else ever. Like if it's some holiday like it was yesterday (Easter) I have problem saying "Happy Easter" to my family and friends, okay if it's trough facebook or twitter I can, but live like in real life, I can't. Even when it's someone's birthday I can't say "Happy birthday" I don't know why, it's like something is stopping me from doing it, like "No, don't you dare to say it, nope" or "Hey let's be a little bit rude". Before I want to say it I always say to myself "Okay, you will walk in that room and say it" and then I walk in and just nothing happens.

This is all what I wanted to talk about...for now. Hope you had a great Easter and time off (if you has any). BYE